Hey Leader, are you tired? I know I am. As a nation, most of us are going on week 5-6 of “Church at Home.” We had to make one of the biggest, quickest pivots in how we do ministry in my lifetime, and probably yours too.
The first two weeks were actually kind of fun if I were to be honest. There was this adrenaline rush and a sense of newness. Most of us were discovering new ways to do ministry. The challenge was invigorating. But now…the “Zoom Fatigue” has set in. Student engagement seems to be waning. (If I have another kid making Ramen during my teaching, so help me…) I have attended more birthday parades then ever in my life. (Full disclosure, before all this I’d never been to a birthday parade.) Darn it, I am in desperate need of a church appropriate side hug from my students.
In these moments you as a leader who loves Jesus and loves your students and families have most undoubtedly been pouring out. Between the check-in calls, the dropping off of birthday cards and birthday parades, the daily Devos, and your own family responsibilities. The question arises who is leading you, leader?
Full transparency, I may have had a slight meltdown the other night with my wife. She could tell that I was struggling. As an extrovert, I was missing people. I was struggling to figure out how to minister to people when I can’t be with people. I was grieving because our spring retreat, my favorite event of the year, was supposed to have just happened. And I am constantly asked questions that I cannot answer because I just don’t know. I was frustrated because I felt like I was pouring out and nobody was pouring into me. Can you relate?
I looked at my wife and said “I am so sick of leading. I just want to give up. I feel like no one is leading me.” My wife was quiet for a moment. Then she said, but you are being led. Then she just simply said Psalms 23.
“The Lord is my shepherd; I have all that I need.” Psalms 23:1 NLT
She was exactly right, it never ceases to amaze me how similar my wife and the Holy Spirit sound.
Leader you have a leader. You have the greatest leader and he is leading you beside still waters and through the valley and setting you down at a feast. Even in the midst of a crisis, he calls you to rest in him. It can be so easy to DO in this season. I know that is my thing. If I could just do one more thing…but maybe just maybe the Good Shepherd is looking at you and me and saying follow me, let me lead you.
If you are feeling tired, worn out, ready to give up. Maybe you feel alone like you’re on an island. Remember you have someone leading you, pouring into you, sustaining you, encouraging you, celebrating you, praying for you, empowering you, weeping with you, laughing with you. You are not alone!
Today I am remembering that Jesus is leading me! Tomorrow…I am remembering it too!